Ever since I could remember I had a fascination with numbers. I use numbers as a way to create lists, legends, mapping of my day and use it as a form of meditation. With that said, math and science were my weakest subjects in school but numbers in the outside world thrilled me. When I was younger I would use counting as a way to calm myself or allow myself to feel more comfortable in a room or crowd. The focus on the numbers is what would take my find off of the event at hand and allow me to disappear for a moment while still being fully conscious of my surroundings.
As I got older I would find myself surrounded my numbers and used it more of a calming tact than ever before. I would count in multiples of 1-5 or 10-100’s. For example, I’ll count 1,2,3,4… 2,4,6,8…3,6,9,12…5,10,15,20…100,200,300,400… etc. etc. This is usually combined with a slow or quick pace, to the beat of a song or with the motions of my fingers tapping against each other. I always thought this was a little quirk and wondered if anyone would notice my finger tapping but I don’t think anyone does.
The more I focused on the number the more I saw. Numbers would be represented in shapes, textures, and colors. Numbers were equivalent to days of the week, months of the year and all combined with colors and shapes. I chalked it up to an imaginative mind.
When I reached 19, I discovered Synesthesia. This was introduced to me by my ex-boyfriend who was diagnosed with it in his earlier years. For those that do not know what Synesthesia is, it is a perceptual phenomenon in which stimulation of one sensory or cognitive pathway leads to automatic, involuntary experiences in a second sensory or cognitive pathway. In other words, it’s a neurological condition in which the senses get cross-wired. Acknowledging this phenomne allowed me to discover more about myself than I thought I had known. There are many types of synesthesia, some more documented and studied than others but the ones most prevalent in my life were:
Grapheme-color synesthesia – In one of the most common forms of synesthesia, individual letters of the alphabet and numbers (collectively referred to as graphemes) are “shaded” or “tinged” with a color.
Chromesthesia – Another common form of synesthesia is the association of sounds with colors. For some, everyday sounds such as doors opening, cars honking, or people talking can trigger seeing colors. For others, colors are triggered when musical notes or keys are being played. This one was the most fascinating to discover. My ex-boyfriend and I would play music and paint what we saw with an unbelievable result that 2 sides of 1 canvas would look identical.
Number form – A number form is a mental map of numbers that automatically and involuntarily appears whenever someone who experiences number forms thinks of numbers.
To someone who may not experience this, it can be hard to describe. If you also experience it I would love to hear from you!
Since numbers had played a large role in my life, it was no surprise when I noticed a specific number follow me around. When I turned 25 on May, 14th 2010 the number 5 followed me everywhere and has not stopped. That day, my stall number was 5, my parking total was $5, my bill at the restaurant was $55.55 and to go a little further, I turned 25 which is a multiple of 5, in the 5th month, with the 14th day being 1+4=5 and the year 2010 being 2 / 10 = 5. I made a mental note of everything and since then there’s been no steering away from it. I’m usually the 5th picked, 5th in line, etc.
A few years ago I decided to create a collection of found playing cards from the street. It was my goal to collect an entire deck and I knew this would take me years as it’s extremely difficult to find them! I do set my own rules though. I will pick up a card even if it’s wet and disgusting, I will pick up 2 cards if they are near each other but if there is more than 2 cards I will them back because there is a full or partial deck nearby and it defeats the purpose. I may take the first card, though.
It’s been 4 years and I’ve located about 8 cards. The numbers 2, 6, 7 and 10 are repeated with some of the same suits but the most remarkable of all the cards are the 3 number 5s that I found in a different suit. I have 3 of the 4 suits and am fully convinced that the day I locate the 4th suit of the number 5 something will grand will happen in my life.
What does the number 5 mean?
“The number 5 is the most dynamic and energetic of all the single-digit numbers. It is unpredictable, always in motion and constantly in need of change. Although it is molded from an almost equal mix of masculine and feminine qualities, in general, the 5 is slightly more feminine — albeit a daring, tomboyish kind of feminine, with nothing demure or submissive about her. The 5 is extremely independent in mind and soul. She is an adventurer and a risk-taker who has a hard time staying in one place, in one job, in one house or in one relationship. Change is an absolute necessity, and yet the 5 is surprisingly loyal.
The 5 generally does not find a suitable career until she has tried a number of different jobs, many of them lasting barely long enough to warrant a full paycheck, especially if there is any kind of routine involved; boredom sets in almost immediately and the 5 simply cannot put up with anything predictable or repetitive. But again, the 5 will surprise her friends and family once she does find her niche, usually after age 30, as her focus, energy and quick mind help her scramble up the ladder faster and with less apparent effort than anyone else. Many 5s take up careers that require travel or otherwise offer a change of environment regularly, becoming tour guides, salespeople, small business owners, independent consultants, lawyers and so forth.
The 5 can adjust quickly to pretty much anything coming her way, and that includes the work environment. On top of that, the 5 is usually tall and good-looking, charming, and charismatic — all qualities that support her in her career once she sets her mind to it. In addition, the 5 is versatile, adaptable, smart, progressive and tolerant. Anything conventional bores her, while she is drawn to the eccentrics and misfits of society. She is a social creature, funny and uplifting, and very good at making others feel comfortable around her. She is generally well-liked and is often surrounded with friends and acquaintances. However, she also tends to polarize people and those that don’t like her tend to be the uptight, self-righteous and judgmental kind. She rarely considers the future beyond tomorrow or next week, and worrying is not in her nature.” (Taken from Numerology.com)
If you know me, you would agree that is pretty much who I am as a person. Understanding what this number meant helped me understand why it appears when it does. It serves as little reminders to be who I am or make the decisions that I know is right for me.
Now, this is considered my lucky number and not to be confused with your life path number. Your life path number is the sum of the birth date. This number represents who you are at birth and the native traits that you will carry with you through life. My life path number is 8.
How did I find this? I was born on 05/14/1987 so my equation would be 1+9+8+7+0+5+1+4 = 35 then 3+5 = 8. Click HERE to read about life path 8.
Numbers are a fascinating topic and one that is worth exploring in my opinion. If you’re open to it, it can provide you with clarity and understanding of your life path but of corse it isn’t meant to be used as dictators of your life. I just like the little nudge.
Do you follow numerology? Share your thoughts with me!!